vry-fokken-ou[AFR] – free-fucking-guy[ENG]
Everything I write is devoted to the search for freedom and the recognition that personal responsibility is a prerequisite for finding it.
Broadly speaking, humans search for freedom in two different arenas. The personal and internal arena of thoughts and beliefs, where that search is referred to as spirituality. And the societal external arena of action and reaction, where it’s referred to as politics.
My search started in the ocean. I was raised by the ocean. From as far back as my earliest memories that’s where I remember being first.
I was searching then. And I am still searching now.
I cannot say it was premeditated because I was swinging for the fences when those were founded. But today I realize that, at their core, both embody a pursuit of freedom and personal responsibility.
But appearances can be deceiving. We seek to understand the world without understanding ourselves.
The search for freedom is a janitorial mind job. It took a deep dive into the subconscious, followed by search and rescue, before I realized that the real struggle was internal.
Life unravels itself if we let it.
While I had been holding on without knowing what I was holding onto the world around me never made much sense, not for as long as I was looking at the world around me.
Traveling. University. More traveling. Marriage. Business. Work. Children. Parenthood.
And the depths of addiction.
The search has taken many turns. And there’s likely many more to come.
But ultimately the search brings me, again and again, back to the corridors of my own mind.
What I want is peace. Not world peace. World peace may or not happen. I want to be at peace with myself.
The question is, what’s standing in my way, what’s the obstacle? And what is it’s solution?
And if I found peace within myself, wouldn’t the world also be a little bit more at peace with itself?