Resentment

Life put us through a hellish experience earlier this year. My wife, our baby boy and I were all pretty seriously ill. All three at the same time. In hindsight I’m grateful for the experience. Obviously I didn’t feel that way at the time. All I wanted was for it to pass. Thoughts of gratitude […]

We are all Addicts

I’m an addict. And I’m not alone. We’re all addicts. Typically the word addict conjures up images from Trainspotting. Needles, overdose and abandoned buildings littered with rotting mattresses. While this is definitely the reality for some, there are many more people who are addicted in far less obvious ways. Coffee. Work. Exercise. Sex. Sleep. Procrastination. […]

Why did I marry?

Today, six years go, I got married. On the 1st of February 2010, I formalised my decision to make a lifelong commitment to my life partner. I entered into a legal agreement, signed by both my wife and I, two witnesses and a marriage officer. We did have a wedding party a month later in […]

Struggle

Some time ago, somewhere in a long-forgotten note book, out of pure exasperation I scribbled down the phrase “Life is a constant struggle”. This was how I felt at the time. The feeling was a constant presence of nervous anticipation that I lived with for many years. Sometimes I still feel this way, but there is […]

Love is Pain

Love is Pain. And I’m not talking about sadomasochism or a valentine’s break-up. Nor am I referring to our romanticised ideas of lust and passion. Generally our culture is at a loss for words when it comes to describing real love. I’m talking about the kind of love that is honest, accepting and forgiving, no […]

Nothing is Completely Hidden

I have struggled with intense irritation, frustration and anger for a long time. I still do. But there are signs of hope. There is a way to overcome it. For as long as I can remember I would get allergic reactions that caused physical symptoms of irritation. These intensified during my teenage years and into […]

Surrender

Surrender to a higher power. After all this time what other choice is there? After all the ups were followed by downs, and all the downs followed by ups, and up and down and up and down, what other choice have we got left? How much longer will we fool ourselves into thinking that we […]